I have to be honest! This is simply a slap in the face, yet something feels so right about it. Let me try to layout my thoughts without sounding crazy.
So for the past couple of months things have been a little edgy between my wife and I. We haven’t been able to be completely in touch with each other most of the time. But we definitely managed to make it through. I’ve been skeptical that she’s pregnant because, frankly, she’s been a little off herself. The results were negative on two different tests in different times.
I didn’t know what was it. Until we went on a general checkup today and the doctor insisted we do the pregnancy test and a urine test, and so she did in his office. The results came out POSITIVE! Well, we knew it can be a false positive as we tried twice before and it was negative. Until the doctor put her on the echo and there was indeed something. So he did some questioning and calculations and he straight ahead said that we’re 7 weeks pregnant… 7 WEEKS!
Here’s the thing, we are simply not ready and haven’t been trying to get pregnant. I lost my job recently, she’s fighting her way through her career, and things aren’t looking too good. So yes.. We freaked out! Big time! In the doctor’s office!
Now that we’re back home, and I’m typing this, I can think of anything else but trying to completely understand how I am feeling. I don’t know what I feel. I mean yes this is something I have always dreamed of – to have a family of my own. But is it right to do it now? Is it a blessing or a curse? I am not so sure.